Life is Weird… Isn’t it?

I was supposed to come back to Gujarat (India) on 13th September 2020, but I recently came back on 23rd September.

If you remember I told you how afraid I was, to go back. I had been afraid that my past memories with X will engross me, and I might be more depressed as I am now, but I guess I am better.

Now, better doesn’t mean I don’t remember him. I often wonder (in my free time), what might have happened if he were here when I came back.

I remember, from 17th May when I came home (Mumbai) until 21st June (2020) he kept on texting me, “I miss you, come back”, but on 27th when he went back to Gurgaon, his version changed. When I begged him to talk to me and tried to remind him of his messages, he denied them… He said, “When did I tell you that I miss you”……………..

 

Life would have been different if he were here when I came back.

The flat in which he lived as a tenant in front of my apartment has been given to someone else by the landlord, everything has changed in 4 months.

Everything…..

I don’t know if I would consider myself lucky or unlucky… Life is weird you know…..

 

My life is really weird………………

 

 

The Past often haunts though… 

Here’s the full Story of how my dreams shattered.

 

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54 thoughts on “Life is Weird… Isn’t it?”

  1. I know how you feel… and I agree with you, better doesn’t mean you have forgotten the person or the pain he brought into your life (and so forth). I think most of that stays with you. It will become part of who you are.

    And when you’re OK with that, you know you’re better.

  2. Life is weird but I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. Maybe you have been spared a much more difficult experience with him down the road by moving on now? I know it’s difficult when we don’t necessarily know the outcome of the different roads that we travel in life, but I do know that there are great things ahead just waiting for you!

  3. The whole world has been weird for this year for everyone in this pandemic. What you have isn’t weird. It’s life and all of life has to offer – love, heartache, happiness, sadness, weird, joy and many many others! I don’t know what is ahead of you but I’m sure there be tons of wonderful things and experiences! 🙂

  4. Life is certainly very weird. I have always found comfort in a quote by The Beatles, “Life is what happens while you’re busy making other plans”. It reminds me of how small we are and how much circumstance dictates our lives.

  5. 2020 has been weird, period! Honestly you’re feelings aren’t weird. Typical after a breakup to feel a loss, or hole. The important thing is to remember that when you let something go, you are making room in your life for something better!

  6. Life is strange, but the only thing that is constant in it is the change. Here, it looks like the fact that he’s not there anymore is for the best. Nobody needs someone who uses deception to manipulate you.

  7. Well, it is clear that he is not worth your time if his mind and heart can change as quickly as that. I hope that you continue to work on moving on and bettering yourself. I know that I don’t know what happened between you two, but someone who can go from saying how much they miss you, then turn around and deny that they ever said that, does not deserve to have you in their life. You WILL find someone who treats you right! Until then, keep treating yourself right. You can do it!

  8. Life is weird for sure but change actually isnt. In fact, if you truly think about it, Change is one of the few things in life that is constant. I know that sounded totally weird and confusing but it is true!
    Anyways, I am glad you were able to return and to be honest, I am glad you came back to a somewhat different set up. Less painful reminders or cues pulling you back to a world you no longer need to be in.

  9. Stop blaming yourself and life just because it didn’t work out. Everyone we meet in life plays a role, some stay and some go. If you really want to heal from heartbreak, you have to let go of your expectations. And yes such things happens for a good reason

  10. I am surely in awe reading this. Just want to know what all happened but I can see that you have moved on and yes u r right life is weird. You never know what it will throw at you next. Love and lights with you.

  11. You see, part of becoming stronger is when you acknowledge the places you and your ex went. Remembering doesn’t always mean you still love him but it’s because of the memories you shared. You cannot move on if you don’t overcome the past, and everything in it

  12. Life is indeed weird! And this year has been crazy for me…but I guess that’s what is life all about. I was supposed to travel back to my hometown and I couldn’t. Next year, I hope things get a little better!

  13. One thing i am pretty sure will happen is that in a year you will struggle to remember all these feelings. This too shall pass. I love it though how you found an outlet in writing and expressing these feelings.

  14. Life is indeed weird but I see it in a positive weirdness. The time will come that you will meet the person that will make you happy.

  15. Life is indeed weird but always remember that it must go on too! Ask for signs on how you want your life is going to be, God will do the rest!

  16. Life really is strange and we never know what will happen next. However, life has its way of working out things so just stay positive and alert and think rationally while trusting in the process.

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