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I Knew What I Was Doing

March 2, 2022 by Moni 40 Comments

He had always given me everything. He never said no to any.
When we first met in 2015, I was in search of a true friend. He became my truest friend who also helped me in taking care of my ailing father.

When my father died in 2016, he became my guide. Next when I was in search of love, he became my love. He loved me unconditionally. We had our ups and downs but we were happy.
In 2017 I met with an accident which left me paralysed. He could have left then taking away everything I had as I lost my memory. But instead of taking away he gave me all he had. He took care of me, he became my support and I was cured.

In 2018, I wanted to get married to him, he didn’t say no, so we got married. A month later I got a job offer in another state. For a change I wanted to accept it. He encouraged me for this new venture. He was ready for this long distance marriage because he had full faith in me.

In 2021, I fell in love with Lalit. I left my job and moved back home. But I was enjoying this new relationship and I had to have him so I moved to his city. I lied at home that I got a new job in some other city. Only Nishant (my husband) knew the truth, I never hid anything from him. He even helped me to shift there.

Once I moved here, after 8 months I realised what mess I got myself into. Lalit loved me, I was emotionally attached to him but I wasn’t in love with him.
He was mentally, verbally and physically abusive to me. It was easy to trigger him. He thought that except Rajputs everyone is inferior. Also education doesn’t matter. I opposed him always and that triggered him. I know I could have agreed to him but I wasn’t a meek. I was opinionated. I let him hurt me, beat me up.

I had seen rough childhood may be that’s why I enjoyed that torture, that pain. Lalit was an alcoholic, he never truly got over his ex. He blamed me for their break up. He claimed to love me but he insulted my family, he hit me until I fainted. I lost it when he abused against Nishant. That night I wanted to get out of that city, but then I hardly had any money.

I asked my Nishant for divorce. He did not say No. But he just asked if I knew what was I doing. I knew. I knew what was doing.
He took the blames from his family on him but didn’t let anything come to me. Earlier I used to tell him everything but now I don’t. I can’t tell him that I’m paying for my deeds.

7th March 2022 is the day me and my husband are get divorced. The thing is, I don’t want this divorce. I love my husband but I need to atone for my deeds. I also am attached to Lalit, but I don’t want to marry him because he is unworthy of it.

I never thought of doing this…

This isn’t working anymore…..

Nishant closed the diary with a heavy heart. He found the diary 3 years after Moitri’s demise. He never expected that Moitri would kill herself.

He just wished that only if Moitri could tell him what was going on in her mind. Only if Moitri could have faith in him.

And for Lalit, he is in jail for killing Moitri. Police found circumstantial evidence against him. His grandfather who was a famous criminal lawyer, his mother who was a beloved minister couldn’t save him.

Three lives met by destiny… Destroyed by the same…



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Filed Under: NanoTales Tagged With: Blogaberry Dazzle, confession, depression, diary, love, marriage, microtales, murder, nanotale, sadness, short story, suicide

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Comments

  1. Meetali Kutty says

    March 4, 2022 at 1:47 pm

    This was quite an intense tale – well written and extremely heartbreaking.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 4, 2022 at 2:07 pm

      Thanks…

      Reply
  2. Kaveri Chhetri says

    March 4, 2022 at 5:27 pm

    hmmm… interesting story and quite complicated too. I’m still thinking about the 3 totally different characters.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 4, 2022 at 5:30 pm

      Glad you liked that.

      Reply
  3. Zenobia Merchant says

    March 5, 2022 at 12:03 pm

    What a tumultuous tale of love, betrayal and death. Sad ending, but I guess rightly deserved. Feel bad for Nishant, he deserved much better.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 5, 2022 at 12:57 pm

      Yeah.

      Reply
  4. Swati Mathur says

    March 5, 2022 at 1:58 pm

    What an engrossing story with an unexpected ending but worth it.

    Reply
  5. Nikita Jhanglani says

    March 5, 2022 at 6:15 pm

    Wow! So much wow! What a gripping story! You’ve told it so well

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 5, 2022 at 9:07 pm

      Thanks for stopping by. Glad you liked it.

      Reply
  6. Flavia Cutinho says

    March 5, 2022 at 6:53 pm

    I was like wat next wat next, totally glued to ur post, enjoyed it.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 5, 2022 at 9:06 pm

      Thanks for stopping by. Glad you liked it.

      Reply
  7. Madhu Bindra says

    March 5, 2022 at 6:56 pm

    Another great story from you. Very engrossing. I am quite confused by the ending. Did Lalit really kill her?

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 5, 2022 at 9:06 pm

      Who knows.but the last line also suggests that it may be a suicide.

      Reply
  8. Varsh says

    March 6, 2022 at 9:16 am

    Only if we let life be less complicated for our own sake! All this could’ve been avoided had there been better communication and owning up. Well-written story!

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 6, 2022 at 7:10 pm

      Thanks. Glad u liked

      Reply
  9. Sonia dogra says

    March 6, 2022 at 12:56 pm

    What goes around, comes around. Intense story.

    Reply
  10. Sadvika Kylash says

    March 6, 2022 at 2:14 pm

    Wow! I wish this to just a story and not a real life inspired for any one. But what a story. amazing it was to read and yes sad as well.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 6, 2022 at 7:10 pm

      May be story or may be real…

      Reply
  11. Shail Thosani says

    March 6, 2022 at 3:30 pm

    An intense story really. It shows that a person can never ever be fully satisfied with life even if they get everything. Nishant was a wonderful friend and husband but yet Moitri desired Lalit. A foolish decision but a sad ending.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 6, 2022 at 3:34 pm

      Yes… Glad you liked it…

      Reply
  12. Vasumathi says

    March 6, 2022 at 3:39 pm

    Another short yet gripping tale. Kudos!!
    Sometimes, when we are not sure of what we want, we end up making the wrong choices. And many times when we are given all that we want, we don’t value it until it is too late.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 6, 2022 at 3:45 pm

      Exactly… Thabks

      Reply
  13. Sindhu Vinod Narayan says

    March 6, 2022 at 4:17 pm

    What an impactful tale, if only she had opened up her mind to him, I wish. Mind makes bad choices especially when in confused state

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 6, 2022 at 7:09 pm

      Yeah. Agree but sometimes it’s hard. May be for Moitri too it was hard

      Reply
  14. Ritu Bindra says

    March 6, 2022 at 4:27 pm

    Interesting story. And engrossing as always. Moitri realized she was better off with Nishant, but by then it was too late. Perhaps Nishant should have fought for his love instead of standing back.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 6, 2022 at 7:08 pm

      Remember the line, ‘He never said no to me’, granting Moitris wishes were may be his way of showing love for her.

      Reply
  15. Abha Singh says

    March 6, 2022 at 5:42 pm

    Heart breaking. Why someone wants to leave a husband like Nishant…still thinking what people want from a relationship or they just take it for granted.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 6, 2022 at 7:07 pm

      May be they realise what’s lost when it’s too late…

      Reply
  16. Kashish Mahtani says

    March 6, 2022 at 6:24 pm

    You leave me covered in goosebumps every time! Another (heartbreaking) masterpiece!

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 6, 2022 at 7:06 pm

      Thanks a ton…

      Reply
  17. Jhilmil D Saha says

    March 6, 2022 at 8:26 pm

    The key to any successful relationship is good communication. Lack of communication can destroy lives. intense story-telling.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 6, 2022 at 9:21 pm

      Thanks. Glad you liked it

      Reply
  18. Bhawna Shah says

    March 6, 2022 at 9:25 pm

    Heartbreaking
    You have glue me till your last word. Sometimes it happens in life that destiny give and takes away the same thing after a period of time.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 6, 2022 at 9:33 pm

      Thanks. Glad you liked it.

      Reply
  19. Pooja Jha says

    March 7, 2022 at 1:55 am

    It is an interesting story, yes it is a sad story also it tells us that if at all we talk, communicate, we can solve many problems. One can definitely get out of toxic realationships and one can be loved and feel the warmth of care only if one tries. I wish Moitri had spoken before it was late.

    Reply
    • Moni says

      March 7, 2022 at 2:04 am

      Only if…

      Reply
  20. Neelam says

    March 8, 2022 at 12:02 pm

    A Vicious Circle I say!!!

    Reply
  21. Vidhya Thakkar says

    March 8, 2022 at 6:12 pm

    Beautifully written!

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    • Moni says

      March 15, 2022 at 8:44 pm

      Thanks a ton. Glad you liked it.

      Reply
  22. Noor Anand Chawla says

    May 1, 2022 at 11:17 pm

    Wow that was quite dramatic!

    Reply

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